Entry #2 May 17th 2012

Today was exhausting.  I don't know if I just overdo it on the exercise, or if I'm not feeling well.  I worked out today HARD.  Its always HARD.  I'm always the last of the 3 of us to finish the workout.  Its very disheartening sometimes.  Hey, at least I'm out there trying i guess.
After the workout, it was home to do the usual. Its by this time 7 am and Grace is ready to bolt out the door without breakfast or a lunch.  I scramble to help her get both, then its prayer and then she is racing out the door to catch Mr. 7:10 bus.  Crazy.
I remember when Rylee first started going to 1st grade and she got her little self up all by herself because I was exhausted with Grace or possibly being pregnant with  Ben.  Anyway, that poor little dear got herself all up and dressed before she would wake me.  Then, I would draaaag myself out of bed and stagger to the kitchen to get her breakfast and send her on the way to the busstop.  So early!
Back to where I was... after Grace is off I usually weed a bit, or get discracted doing something as the house is still quiet for a little bit before the rest of the kids come down stairs.
Then, its Rylee rushing out the door at 7:50, and then Ben and Mia are next to go with breakfast and lunches and reading, or piano, or homework that wasn't finished, shoes on, hair done, papers collected, lunches made and stuffed into backpacks.  They leave around 8:45 or later.  Usually Mia is late.  She is SUCH a dilly dallier!!  I come back into the house through the garage and sigh.  Peace and quiet for a minute!!  But the kitchen is now a disaster.  I can't even THINK about the rest of the house in its own disarray...

Today it was hurry and get ready for Ben's field trip up to Snow Canyon.  It was already hot when we got up there and started the 1.5 mile plod of a hike.  Kids were complaining, sweaty, thirsty and tired.  I was too.  After that the poor saps had to sit in the sun and listen to her talk about snake skin and coyote scat for 30 min.  Then eat lunch and pile back in the bus.  I was exhausted the whole time and fell asleep on the way home.
After that I worked on stake 4th year hike stuff.  I am the stake 4th year hike committee leader.  Kinda fun, kinda not.  I work with Mindy Boyce who is pregnant and won't be going on the hike, and Haley Warner who I roped onto doing it with me.  I'm also doing activity days, and primary teacher for the 8 and 9 year-olds.
After that I rushed to the store to buy fruit for the rainforest moka play that Mia was in with her 1st grade class.  Ran to that, it was adorable.  I couldn't even THINK about how big she is and that my baby is now going into the 2nd grade.  I swear, your babies growing up has got to be the worst kind of torture for a mother.  It is just awful!
I don't really want any more babies, I just want MY babies back.  I want to raise them again and do it all over- maybe better.  I don't know, maybe I would do it worse.